So many thoughts...so many thoughts
Racing to my hea
Can't get them all down
I've reached the darkest part of myself and I'm scared
I've never been here before and I have no one to turn to
Who would I turn to anway
My boyfriend? He couldn't possibly understand or even comprehend.
My friends? Do I really have any?
My family? I don't have any.
My poems? R they even really poems?
My journal? By the time I get there, the words are gone.
I'm scared, so scared, it is very dark in here, all i see is black all the light is gone.
The Church? Bah, they'd just call me demon and have me exorcised.
God? We all know the answer to that.
Whose left? Me...always me.
I've never been this scared before
It's never gotten this dark before, the walls are closing in
Pain...there is physical pain
Am i finally losing my mind?
No I'm too weak for that
If I were strong, I would let it all out...let everything go
But I'm not...I'm weak, so I hold it in. But Ican only hold it for so long
Building, growing, getting worse, getting darker
The darkness is growing
I've never felt this before
Growing dimmer, darker, heavier
The darkness is all consuming
I should let consume me but I can't...I'm not strong enough
Too much emotion flooding my mind at once
Swirling in teh dizziness of my chaos
The pain is unbearable
Growing deeper, hotter...it hurts
I'm dying...I'm dying on the inside I can't feel...I can't feel anything...I can't feel anything only darkness...only darkness
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U ask me y i love u
The answer is simple
U ask me y i am with u
The answer is simple
U ask me y i am here
The answer is simple
When i'm with u, when i'm near u, when i think of you
I am in my purest form
Maybe it's selfish, but u bring the true me to surface
The me no one else sees
The me i don't even see
My happiest, my saddest, my truest me
The purest form i can be
Ur touch, ur smile, ur laugh
All brings me to me
The me hidden away where no one can go
The me that is only for u
So y do i love u, y am i with u
Y am i here...
The answer is simple
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3 simple words
That say so much
I could give you a long speech
Write a 3-page essay
But it all comes down to the same thing
I love you
I could write a ballad the muses would envy
Sing a song for the ages to hear
But it all sounds the same
I love you
I would write a 300-page novel
a 13 page epic poem
If it could convey to you the true meaning of
I love you
I could make some grand gesture, some overt plea
I could shout my love for you
For all to hear
But that still doesn't compare to
I love you
I could do all these things
In the grandest, most profound
In the sincerest way...
Actually I just did
I
Love
U
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Let me count the ways...
The ways I've showed my love
But my efforts thwarted
The ways I've written u my love
But my ink invisible
The ways I've felt my love
But my senses dulled
The ways I've smelled my love
But my nose plugged
The ways I've tasted my love
But my tongue numbe
Th ways I've seen my love
But I was blind
Let me count the ways I've voiced my love
But unable to speak a word
Let me count thw ways I've tried to count the ways
When I could not count
How can I count the ways
When there is no way
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In a world where strength is rewarded and on the the strong survive
With u...I'm weak
Not the weak that is frowned on, not the weak that is pitied, but
the weak that is cherished, adored
I've never been weak
I'm strong
I'm always strong...always
But with u I'm weak...so weak and tehre is nothing I can do about
it because I'm weak and
I like it
I pretend to be strong
I try to be strong
I am strong
But one glance, one smile and firmness turns to soft, willpower
turns to willing, strength is weakness
When u always have to be strong, u long for weakness to be hugged
not the hugger, to be protected not the protector, to be loved not
the lover
At my weakest, I am at my purest form
Something no one sees
Something I never show
When no ne else would/could...u did
U r my strength, u r my weakness
With u, I am my strongest
With u, I am my weakest
With u, I am
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they say 1 is the loneliest #
but i say 30 or 15
in a crowd of people ur stilln ot heard or seen
u stand in a corner trying not to make eye contact trying to stay invisible
Thinking of all the ways to escape possible
1 is not the lonliest #
it is the only #
the only # that truly counts
so from time to time make some time to find out what you are all about
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One of my eyes sees the present
the other sees the past
I wish i could get lost on the hope that is the future
But I have only 2 eyes
Don't cry for me
Someone with dry eyes
Drown me in your love
and show me what could be
See me 4 what I am &
not what I should be or could be
Look @ me not through and understand
See the person within, without, with all she is
Envision us together
Love me like I love you!
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I look into the depths of my minds eye and it frightens me
All the images, all the confusion, all the clutter that is me
When looking through its hard to distinguish 'tween the real & the
illusion the mass confusion that has become my delusion the depths go even
deeper into the darkness the recesses of my mind where i try to find the
truth behind my minds eye
I sit in the darkness of contemplation to harness the true relation of
everything
My minds eye sows distorted images reported as the truth but truth disguised
as lies is what ties my minds eye together
Whether I can see it or not doesn't mean it doesn't happen
It means I must trust my heart and decided 4 myself what lies in the truth
and what truth is in the lies
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It's getting hot in herre, so take off all your clothes
cause i wanna rock your body, night and day
oops i did it again, got lost in da game
cuz i am whatever you say i am, if i wasn't then
What does it take to be #1
u in da club bottle full of bub
uh-huh i got what u need
so come give me some love
ooh there goes my shirt over my head, oh i
cuz baby if u give it to me, i'll give it to u
i know what u want
cuz i got the supa luvin'
cuz it's like whoa!
100m/h switching lanes like whoa!
cuz if u keep wasting my time
then move bitch, get out the way
cuz it's all about me tonight
pop quiz tell me where we first kissed
tell me where my spot is
tell me if i like it...love it
i love to love you baby
as we lay (forget about tomorrow)
betcha by golly wow!
heaven can wait
cuz ain't no mountain high enough
2 keep me from getting 2 u
always and forever
I'll be that
superwoman
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What is the definition of a man/woman?
Society constantly trying to define me, trying to find out who I am and what
I B
trying to figure out what I'll contribute to society
U can't define me
I'm not a definable person
Is it the way I walk, talk, act?
Or the way I think, feel, react?
The way I write or the my conduct in the face of plight?
The definition of a person is a powerful thing
So don't be defined and don't define me
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I lie awake at night waiting to die
Thinking of the days events
I lie awake at night waiting for death
Trying my hardest not to cry
I lie awake at night waiting for death
Reminiscing on the past
Hoping the breeze takes my last breath
I lie awake at night waiting to be dead
Praying for the pain to end
Wishing to stop the throbbing in my head
I lie awake at night waiting for deaths hand
Praying not to see the dawn
Thinking 'this is the night is all ends'
I lie awake at night until I sleep
Dreaming of the dark within
But dawn always comes, the sun shines
and creeps into my sleep.
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Every where I go I'm accused of having an attitude
When I speak I have an attitude
When I don't speak I have an attitude
When I'm being courteous I have an attitude
When I wave I have an attitude
When I smile I have an attitude
When I don't smile I have an attitude
When I try to not have an attitude...I have even more attitude
When I try to change my attitude...I have even more attitude
When I deny my attitude...I have even more attitude
When I accept I have an attitude...I have even more attitude
No matter what...I have an attitude
No matter what...I have an attitude
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Tiger, Tiger burning bright
in the solitude of the night
with a mane that flows like fire
and sparkles like gems in the light.
Agile creature strong and great
burning long unable to await
thy masters call to serve and protect
and coincide with the hands of fate.
Eyes so dark and deep they glow
black spirals that swirl and flow
inner thoughts and secrets show
what pierces thy heart and thy soul.
Tiger, Tiger burning bright
creeping forward into the night.
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10 syllables 4 the world
the universe is always against u
9 words 4 my girls
when it comes to life and love, stay true
8 syllables 4 my men
women r not always the same
7 words 4 both of them
in life 1 must play the game
6 words 4 my family
love stands the test of time
5 words 4 my enemy
ur soul is now mine
4 syllables 4 the great
idealism
3 syllables 4 hate
racism
2 things that R true
u live & u die
1 question 4 u
Y?
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I'm tired. Tired of being there when everyone needs me.
I'm tired.
Tired of being the adult always surrounded by a bunch of kids.
I'm tired.
Tired of being the mature one.
I'm tired.
Tired of being complained to and about.
I'm tired.
Tired of being the indulgence of one's fantasy.
I'm Tired.
Tired of being the indulgee and not the indulger.
I'm tired.
Tired of suffering from headaches and migraines worrying about others' problems.
I'm tired.
Tired of not having time for me because it is given so freely.
I'm tired.
Tired of not being appreciated for all I've done.
I'm tired.
Tired of being used and abused by others.
Tired of feeling hurt.
Tired of crying late into the night.
Tired of no one hearing m cries.
Tired of no one caring I'm tired.
I'm Tired.
Tired of being the only one who cares.
Tired of going through others pain and suffering.
Tired of having no one there when I'm in pain.
Tired, I'm tired of being alone.
Tired of being helpless.
Tired of feeling helpless.
Tired of feeling like I have to walk on eggshells.
I'm Tired.
Tired of being the one everyone runs to.
To whom does the runee run to when things get tough?
Who is there for me?
Who cares for me?
Who cares about me?
Who needs me?
Who?
I'm just so tired.
Tired of it all.
Sick and tired.
Sick of getting tired.
Tired of getting sick.
Tired of being tired.
I'm just tired of it all.
I'm just tired...
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Y R U Following Me
I walk around, I go to class taking notes & there u r
Y r u following me
when I wake up, in the closet, in the shower
I see u
getting dressed/undressed in my bed/under my bed u r always there
now ur stalking me
down the street in the store in my car
y r u stalking me
on my TV, the radio, on my computer
y r u IM'ing me
u r stalking me
everywhere I go I feel ur eyes...ur presence...I feel u
stop stalking me
I c u behind closed door, hidden in trees, next to that bush
now ur crazy
jumping from roof top to rooftop ur all around me
y r u crazy
I hear your screams, ur cries, ur breathing
am I crazy
1st ur following me, then stalking me, now ur crazy
or am I crazy
How u progress from following to crazy
I don't want u crazy, please don't b crazy
if you can progress 2 crazy u can regress 2 following me
go back to following
please go back to stalking just don't be crazy
I can't deal with crazy
there's 2 much crazy
no matter where I look/go ur there
just leave me alone please
ur becoming a part of me
y won't u leave me alone
I can't distinguish between the 2
leave me alone
I look in the mirror and c u
LEAVE
by myself I hear u
ME
in my dreams I feel u
ALONE
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I've come to the realization that after all the tribulation,
devastation, and hesitation
I am still not number one in your nation. I feel the hesitation in your heart and I just want to
be a part of what makes your day start. I want to start with your smile all the
while making you
realize I'm going the extra mile to be number 1 on your emerald isle. Number 1 in your world filled
with emotions being hurled left and right to every other girl. Emotions that are true blue and can't
be misconstrued for any other love than the one inside you. You are mi light in the night and I am
going to fight the good fight to be Number 1 with all my might. After the show and grow and let
everyone know I'm number 1 fo' sho'. But number 1 I'm not. I'm not. And no matter what the case I
can't find the right spot. Nor can I loosen the knot in your heart. Number 1 is what I want but all
I feel is your taunt and I can no longer deal with your haunt-ing me. So I flee the scene in a need
to be free and once again realize Number is not for me.
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I feel you inside and I can no longer hide the pain I have
chosen to confide the happiness
I have been denied. Alone with my emotions to feel the commotion of my tragic locomotion. A train
derailed in the failed attempt to travel a path trailed by my impaled heart.
Pierced with a hot knife
slowly stripping away my very life causing more pain and strife. The heart ways heavy with the steady
rhythm of my world levied only by my weakness. The inability to produce the proper juice that provide
the nectar to abuse the right to use me. Emotionless, homeless, sadness,
loneliness. My life in a
nutshell otherwise known as the 7th circle of hell.
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I sit in the darkens of my mind and try to find the answers to the questions that bind.
How did this happen? When did this happen? Why did this happen? What just happened? I let the
darkness consume me because the scent of my failure is coupled only by the stench of my insanity.
My mind my heart my soul have fallen under the control of the gravitational black hole that has
consumed the highlight of my glow. I disappear into the abyss and dwell on my wish list that
unfulfilled in this...my darkest twilight. Fading into the night I can no
longer fight so I stop and
begin to look for the light.
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When the runner needs a place to hide
When the woeful need someone to confide
When the sorrowful need a shoulder to be cried
Who is there by their side?
When the hurt need to release their pain
When the stressed need to let loose the strain
When they wonder is it all in vain
Who is their again & again?
When the quiet need to confess
When the lowly need the success
When they need to feel like the rest
Who helps them the best?
When the runners leave
When the stressed flee
When the lowly feel glee
Who is left...me?
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Give me a kiss,
make me feel it 1000 times over.
Fill my body with the sense of love
and affection.
Fireworks and explosions are what
I want to see and feel.
Sensations of lust
Feeling of emotion
Tingles and chills up and down my spine
TO want and to desire
One who can do all you've ever
Dreamed...
Wished...
Hoped...
Anticipated...
DESIRED for.
A sensual kiss, a painfully exotic touch,
An eruption emotion.
Make my body squirm with
anxiety...anticipation.
With the wonder of what is to happen
next
Your forehead to mine, your lips
to mine
1000 times over make me feel the sensuality
of a KISS!
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A flame that roars up to the heavens
With brightness that makes the stars jealous
Heat that could melt the icecaps and shy away the sun
And colors that even Kodak can't capture
All these combined to extend to the ends of the earth and beyond
Water nor sand nor lack of oxygen can extinguish or quench this fire
Ever burning, ever bright, ever colorful
Always there, always seen
No matter how huge or how tiny
This flame burns within all
No kindling necessary, no matches or lighter fluid required.
This flame this fire goes by the name DESIRE!
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One night, one act, one sin
One sensual deed
An emotionally filled act
A night of desire and lust
A friend now a lover
An innocent will changed to
A sinfully delicious act
A Challenge...
Playfulness...
Seriousness...
An exotic touch
A delicious massage
Sinful kisses
Emotion felt to the highest degree
Shiver...
Chills...
Shock...
Anticipating every move
Feeling every touch
Sensing every move
Heavy breathing...
Panting...
Moaning...
Escaping...
Capturing...
An intimate night of emotion felt
A sinfully delicious act done.
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There's somethin' about you
That makes me want you like I do.
It's what keeps me from sleep at night to keep me wanting you.
There's somethin' about you.
That makes a woman feel like a woman.
It's somethin' that makes here a little smarter
And more aware so she can understand
That there's somethin' about you.
That every woman can see
Opening the blinds' eyes every time
You take a look at me.
There's somethin' about you
That heats me up everyday and always keeps me warm
Somethin' that keeps the sun upon me
That always quiets the storm.
There's somethin' about you
That lingers...
It's there from whenever I see you and long after we part.
Could it be that it's happiness
Or maybe voodoo.
I just can't put my finger on it
But there's somethin' about you.
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All it took was just one kiss
And in my heart I knew,
That my heart and loving soul
Would forever belong to you.
No other one will ever do
It just won't be the same,
Constantly I'm thinking of you
The tattoo on my heart bears your name.
My mind is set on the future
Of you and me as one,
I want to shine for you like the moon
And rise to be your sun.
Give you gifts of love and joy
I give you the stars and skies,
Just hoping you know how I feel for you
When I look into your eyes.
My appetite for you is strong
I hunger for you everyday,
Wanting to love you more and more
Differently in every way.
Will I be the woman at your side?
To be with you through life's endeavor,
Let there be no question of my love for you
This heart is yours forever.
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All my life, I've found myself waiting
Waiting for someone like you
Waiting to have someone to love
And someone to hold onto
I know it's just a matter of time
Before I can make you mine
And now I know what happiness means
And exactly what love should be
This feeling doesn't seem for real
It's like a dream come true
It's like our hearts were drawn together
As you appeared right out of the blue
Patience and hope will pay its due
I know we were meant for something great together
That's why I've been waiting for you.
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Sweet all over from head to toe
To me you're heavenly bliss.
You're mint condition lips make me explode
When I feel your Hershey kiss.
Your candy ways are always special
Your smile is so delicious.
It's like you appeared right out of the blue to fulfill my chocolate wishes.
Drenched in cocoa with caramel eyes
To reality I can't come to grips.
Loving every part of you
From your feet to fingertips.
To me you a vision in the dark
You're never what it seems.
A chocolate man and a sexual woman like me
Taking part in my chocolate dreams.
The time we spend is precious now
And may we always remember it
From now to forever I'll carry the memory of you being my Sexual Chocolate.
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The feeling I get when you're around makes me act
like a school girl of twelve. Making me giggle and blush is
the feeling I love to feel. There is nothing more precious
than two committed to the ultimate union and sacrifice most
people can not make. There is nothing more sensual than the feeling
of emotions felt to the highest degree. Anyone who feels that they can
do this act with anyone lacks the experience and knowledge to satisfy. Anywhere
there is feeling there is love. Throughout time making love has been the
creator and destroyer of civilizations. The world is not yet prepared for
the flood of emotions experienced when two become one.
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All this emotion that I feel
I know I want something that is real
Want to make you feel the same
To show that this is not a game
Do all I can to show my emotion
Is like the tidal wave of an ocean
To do a sensual touch
Make a sexual feel
Sweet from head to toe
Sexual in everything I do is real
Love is something special and fine
To you I want to wine and dine
You are my ultimate goal
Now I see you are my heart soul.
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All I want is a feeling that's reel
All I want is something I can feel.
All I want is emotion and lust
All I want is someone I can trust.
All I want is love and sex
All I want is passion forget the rest.
All I want is emotion I can see
All I want is you loving me.
All I want is patience and time
All I want is for you to be mine.
All I want is for you to see
How much I'm trying to set free.
All I want is for us to become one
All I want is for you to remember when it's done.
All I want is something I can feel
All I want is a feeling that's real.
All I want is ...
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A Libra and guided by the Venus planet
2 strikes against her and she can't stand it.
An overflow of emotion and love
That soars to the surface like a dove.
Twice punished and twice cursed
Her hormones control what she does on this earth.
Searching for one in the same situation
Disappointment sets in, all she gets is infatuation.
Lust no longer good enough, sex no longer satisfying,
Love is now the prerequisite, there is no denying.
Though twice punished and twice cursed,
All these qualities make me astrologically perfect.
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Conniving...secret...hidden, the perfect mistress of the dark.
Now you see her now you don't is the way she wants it to be.
Put on earth for purpose, to satisfy men sexually.
Always around when you least expect it and gone before you know it,
Searching for her next victim to be her sexual chocolate.
Lady of the Night is what she's called and her misters do the same,
Having hot sexual orgies and passionate love is the name of the
game.
Love is a joke,
1000 to 1 are the probabilities.
Romance isn't dead,
People have just exhausted the possibilities.
Explosions of emotion and movements to match
Lady of the Night knows never to get attached.
The perfect mistress of the dark.
Conniving...hidden...secret,
Lady of the Night is the perfect sexual outlet.
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An arrow to the heart is how I feel.
Whenever I feel an emotion that is real.
Giving and giving and never taking
To the man in my life there is no mistaking,
How I feel and how I react
Whenever we come in contact
I have seen now that the intervention is divine
I know now that you will never be mine.
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A jewel that sparkles brighter than the nearest star.
Outshines and is more beautiful than the northern lights
This jewel is priceless and is only sought after by the brave and the courageous.
Unable to be held by those with an ulterior motive
One has managed to obtain this priceless jewel.
For how long?
Only time and the jewel can decide.
Does this one deserve such a precious and rare stone?
In the eyes of others, hell no, but fate and the jewel pick and chose as it pleases.
Until another worthy of its glory can be found.
Only found in the deepest and darkest places.
With only one in existence
Jewel collectors around the world desire this carbon based object.
Willing to go to great extents and pay whatever price to obtain this jewel.
An Obstacle that can not be overcome and a goal that can not be obtained.
Why is this jewel sought after with such a desire and passion?
One can only guess, for no one actually knows.
Maybe it's the feeling one gets by achieving the impossible.
Or maybe it's the feeling one gets when skin comes into contact with this jewel.
Maybe it's the open sense of oneness when this jewel is obtained.
Or perhaps it's the rush of emotion that floods into one's system and dominates a person's
five senses and thoughts and takes over ones whole emotional system and renders them
helpless.
Whatever the reasons may be
the quest is justified.
for this precious jewel, this Black Diamond, is hypnotizing and enveloping.
It secretes the most magnificent of things.
Designed to fulfill your most desirable whishes and make all your dreams come true
The most delightful things happen when this stone can be obtained.
Why is this jewel sought after with such desire and passion?
One can only guess.
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a mother is like a rose
both are beautiful and both are sweet
each one individually unique
both can be defied just the same
each one special just with a different name
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My heart and soul I gave to you still I know not why
My body and mind are forever yours this I can not deny
My being and essence you hold in your hands for these are what I gave
My loyalty and love are yours to use or to wave
My life I've found myself hurting waiting for someone like you
My mind is confused and races with the thoughts of me and you
My mouth is tired and sore from uttering your name
My ears tingle with anticipation of sounds that you feel the same
My body yearns with delight just to see you appear
I tingle with excitement just to have you near
Every night when I'm asleep, I see what our destiny will become
Every morning when I awake, I see you and I as one.
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how blessed I've been all these days to have you in my life
how lucky I am to be there to help you through your strife
how great it felt to be the one to make you smile
how wonderful to help you tread that extra mile
how exciting to see the fire in your eyes burn bright
how comforting to be the one you talk to every night
how special I feel when you look in my direction
my body tingles when you show your love and affection
how joyous to you laugh again
how frustrating to help you through your pain
how blessed I am
how lucky I've been
you're not only my lover
your my best friend.
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The time has come, as you can see, for all the fun to end.
Still I reminisce on yesterday when you became my friend
Though the friendship we had was awkward and kind of strange
I was always there for you to help you through your pain
We've been there for each other again time after time
I've helped you with your troubles, as you have helped me with mine
As the days continue to pass, and both our personalities grew
Each day was something special and allowed us to begin anew
With each new day the plot to our story thickened
Yet, the denouement still could not me envisioned
Our friendship has lasted for longer than I'd thought
Off and on and off again since the very start
Through all the trials and tribulations that we have been through
A day never went by that we allowed the other to be blue
Still After all this time, I feel a connection between us
One that can't be broken by an argument or simple fuss
And many arguments we've had over the years
Some resulted in laughter and others resulted in tears
The laughs outweighed the other, for you could always make me smile
And this is what let me to know that it was all worthwhile
But, almost as quickly as it started it now the time to end
Time to realize that you I may never see again
As I vision you walking down the aisle to accept your degree
My only wish is that you won't forget me
We may say we'll "keep in touch", but we both know the deal
When you leave the game is over, that's just how I feel
Reality is something that is always hard to face
You, I know that I can never replace
Graduation day is a special one in your life now the biggest part
And there will always be a place for you in the bottom of my heart
I wish you mush success in you future endeavor
The world is out there waiting for you to use as your lever
The year is finally over and our paths must now go separate
Of my affection you have ceased to be the object.
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I was asked to write a poem about essence
you may think this is not a very hard task
But essence is a tricky word and not an easy one to unmask
So I sat with my pen and paper and made the attempt to write down something
Then when I looked over it and read I realized is said nothing
They were just words on a sheet of paper and could not possibly describe what it
meant
Then I realized that I must not have made a good enough attempt
Suddenly it hit me what essence could be
It's the which is inside everyone...you...me
My essence comes from my future, present and past
My essence includes famous names Nephertiti, Gandhi, Napoleon
And famous soil Asia, Russia, and the land of the Leprechaun
Essence changes and is different with each and every person
But one thing remains constant it has its own distinction
It's the birth right from you parents, the memories from the great, the characteristics of
your friends, the ideas we generate
Essence is so much more than what you see around you
The word essence...the meaning of essence...is you
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What do you see?
I see the burnt out stars in the finite sky The clouds blowing
over head as they dissipate into the wind The trees and its leaves as they fall to the
hard earth The roots sucking the life from the planet that can take it away again I see
people going about their daily choices Passing one another with out so much as an hello I
see couples holding hands, husbands holding their wives, wives kissing lovers, husbands
embracing mistress I see the love in your heart, the fear in her eyes, the hatred in his
soul, the sacrifice you made I see the love between a parent and child The nurturing
of the mother, the abandonment of the father, the adoration of both I see that child
growing into a society with excitement in its spirit, courage in its soul, determination
in its heart I see the hope for its future followed by the despair of defeat I see the
efforts of nations, triumphs of civilizations, the success of society, the failures of
individuals I see the disgust for one another, the contempt for your fellow man, the
unification of nothing I see the glory of the world I see reality What do you see?
What do you feel?
I feel the wind as it blows across my body the breeze through my
hair the air around me I feel the ground beneath me the cool soil between my toes, the
rocks against the base of my feet I feel the clinging of the clothes on my body the
intertwined fibers and the woven materials pressing on my skin The texture of each
individual piece I feel the smooth surface on your face, the roughness on his hands, the
curves on her body I feel the love in your heart, the fear in her eyes, the hatred in his
soul, the sacrifice you made I feel the love for me I feel the curiosity in my mind the
wonder for the world, the need to explore I feel society shutting in, the walls crashing
down, the window of opportunity closing I feel the effort made by individuals as well as
that not made by others I feel the growth of society, the expansion of the nation, the
crumbling of family values I feel the resentment between mother and father, father
and son, daughter and mother, sister with brother I feel the resentment towards me I feel
all that is above you, around him, underneath her, within me I feel all that is and ever
will be What do you feel?
What do you hear?
I hear the echo of my own voice The vibration against my eardrum
The bass of my sound I hear the voices of others their laughs, their cries, their joy,
their sorrow I hear the talent in the audience as well as the lack thereof I hear the
clapping of hands, the applaud of the crowd, the hissing of everyone I hear the beating of
hearts with anticipation, excitement, pain The steady rhythm and constant beat The music
made by one simple organ I hear you, cursing at one another, blaming the other, begrudging
your friend I hear husbands apologizing, wives forgiving, children caught in the middle I
hear the sound of tears in the distance Each drop running down the cheek...to
chin...to neck I hear the sorrow of an entire people, the despair of civilizations, the
disgrace of nations I hear the crumbling as society crashes, the dismay as people are
tormented I hear I hear you, me, him, her I hear everything that is us What do you
hear?
What do you smell?
I smell the stench of a decaying government in the breeze blowing
through giving everything a foul air The earth decaying beneath me ready
for the rebirth The death of human contact s a mother txt msgs' her
husband, a father e-mails his son, a brother IM's his sister, a daughter
hangs up the phone I smell the discontentment of the people as everyone
goes about their daily business without the slightest glance for the
homeless man asking for change I smell the fear, the hatred, the envy, the
putrid stench that is disgust as a perfect stranger says hello as he walks
by I smell the rotten corpse that is society clawing for renewed life only
to be devoured by the maggot that is reality I smell the decay of a
nation, corrupted by the thirst for prosperity, lingering in the toxic
waste of society where it's everyman for himself I smell the breath of a
civilization blowing away the foul stench of it's society and breathing
new life into it's people I smell the blossoming rose bud of a nation I
smell it's sweet nectar on the breeze What do you smell?
I am the creator of everything I am the destroyer of everything I
am the cause of kings rising to power I am the reason nations have crumbled I am the start
of the world I am the giver of life I am the taker of life I am life I am death
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No Name
i’ve
come into a world where i can’t get ahead instead i’m being pulled down by the
weight i generate from my own state of being a world which produces a society that juices
the life and creativity from each and every individual and leaves a residual stain on the
fabric that is reality the dry ass reality where money is the object and i am of the
affection the direction i travel now is toward the stars for no bars can hold me back i'm
tired of being attacked by the very society i have been raised to preserve where this
society serves the lie "truth shall set you free" please i've been fighting for
the truth that i am just as equal as any man but no one wants to hear i ask for those to
open up their heart and start to listen to what i have to say and pray they understand to
open up their eyes and see me for me and with a soul so divine to admit that i like them
have a heart and a mind but i digress and leave this to rest in your hand and hope that
unlike i you can make them understand
i'm stuck in a world where i can't get ahead instead
i'm being pulled down by the weight i generate from my own state of being a world where
fantasy has the tendency of becoming reality however this is not me the world i've dreamt
up and set up to bring me down has found a way to play with my mind so i continue the
journey to find the mind to help me find away to unwind and realize my true destiny
defined by fate defined by me an endless circle of destruction made through the
construction of my own state of being trapped in a cycle i can't escape taped to the floor
exploring my possibilities reality sucks life sucks the truth sucks it is a weapon used
and abused by you...me...but i still don't see the lie i have come to live give myself a
chance enhance my skills drill my mind find a way...pray help is out there it is up to me
to ask for it
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This sh** I was in!!
*this is purely
fictional*
Jennifer:
God-damn-it! I can’t decide
Audience can in you I confide
I got a little story I need to tell
How my life suddenly went down to hell
I’m in love with this guy, but then I met another
So for four weeks I’ve been keepin’ him undercover
Creepin’ in and out…out and in
He taken’ me to levels of ecstasy I can’t even begin…
Jamin:
To tell you a story about these two best friends I’ve been
playin’ ‘round with on the weekends. I’m sayin’ they tricked me into
messing wit ‘em both, one short with an ass that shakes the world the other with a
mouth that shouldn’t be on a girl. I’m mad lately they been stealin’ my time
and my other girls are mad cause they say I’m blind ignorin’ them all these
weeks, questionin’ if I’ve found another freak. Tell me…tell me what am I
to do? They fuckin’ up the routine that I’m used to…
Nikkia:
That’s fucked up ain’t it/But hey that’s how you
play the game/I just figured out that my guy and my girl’s man are one in the
same/But you know that in every game there comes a trick she kissing his ass me
handlin’ my shit/I mean I know she loves him, but should I fuck him still?/hey but
that shit is good, I’m just keepin’ it Real
Jennifer:
REAL GOOD that’s why I can’t decide
Cause to myself I’ve never lied
I’ve been running around like a chicken without a head
Well I got a head but shhhh that’s only in bed.
I was lookin’ for my girl like all night
Just lookin’ for a little advice
Nikkia:
Yeah I got her page five times last night/But the I meant to
call, but in my position…it wouldn’t have been right/Clothes over
here…draws over there/But to y’all…I’m not even gone go there/I woke
up late this mornin’ I was feelin’ ok/So I decided to call her back today/
Jamin:
Damn I woke up late my mind s gone…shit I had to run my ass
home. My girl was supposed to meet me last night at 10, but again that’s what I get
for messing with two friends. I called her later so we could get together at church. Cause
you know us sinners be on that Jesus search. She met me there as I was comin’ in and
afterward I fell right back into sin.
Jennifer:
Where the hell he at today?
Can’t find him Monday…Tuesday…Wednesday…Thursday…Friday.
But Saturday he seems to reappear
Am I missing something here?
I have him all but for 24 hours
All his love I try to devour
I try to tell my friend all the shit I began
But she seems to disappear on the weekend
Nikkia:
Come on…come on, keep this all REAL/He’s something fun
to play with still/24 hours is too much time/For a man like him I would never want to be
mine/he is just a Saturday thang/he know it I know it, It’s called "Playin’
the game"/why can’t my girl figure this out/Love what is that all about?/Love
has too many rules/ I myself have other fools/
Jamin:
Fool, Fool, Fool, oh shit it’s cool…for the game is
getting’ old. I’m tired of my name being placed with blame. And I don’t
want to see the rest of the plot to unfold. Two is a lot, one is too many, none is just
right. Fucking these two friends wasn’t too bright. What I came for I got, and what I
deserve I get, so I guess for now I’m leaving this shit.
Jennifer:
Alone is how I feel so I guess I’ll go back
To my man’s house and paycheck
Was I wrong for cheatin’? Hell, maybe it was on a whim
But, he ain’t never got to know I cheated on him
Nikkia:
I stand here alone, or alone am I?/I always have a back up plan
to keep me by/Now this shit is over I guess I’ll move on/Let me call Rome and see if
that fool is home/Hey man where you been?/Let me tell you about this shit I was
in……
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